PMA & NMA

Okay, I know... I just moaned about text language and shortened words but these two words/abbreviations meant a lot to me when my mother talked to me about them.
Guessed what they mean yet? I asked my form tutor, quite embarrassing when he came out with something along the "Period Menstral.. something." I did the same with some of my friends but they came out with a slightly immature statement, I'm not going to write it but I'm sure you could think of it in your head.
PMA - Positive mental attitude.
NMA - Negative mental attitude.

     In my opinion, if you have more of a PMA, better things will come out of it. You will look at mistakes as a form of moving forward and learning from them, what went well, how it could be changed to be even better, etc. - Reflecting is a better way to put it.
Sometimes, having a NMA, good things will come but it closes doors and lessens your oppertunities, optimistic people are normally chosen because they can be flexible, learn and grow into something that could be used in the future, they will have knowledge. Look at it this way, if you have a cicle and a balloon, you expand the balloon within the circle, it should fit perfectly within it. Whereas if you have a balloon and a triangle shape, there will still be space, the space is a way of having a NMA, you won't want to grow and learn from mistakes, meaning that space won't be filled.
    Changing is a way of changing this. You mould the triangle until the balloon fits perfectly within it. The shape will grow and along with the shape, the balloon will expand more. This is how I view things sometimes, Making mistakes in work, learning from it and changing/revising so you don't do it again. It goes with anything, baking a cake, burning it wrong and then thinking "What could go worse?" Just think, at least you didn't burn the house down, it's only a small amount of smoke and a charcoaled cake on the side, waiting to either be tasted by daring people or put in the bin and starting again.
    When life throws tasks at you, don't sit there and say it's too hard. Don't be a triangle. Be a circle, remember; "What's the worst that could ever happen?" I know you can do it, but do you know you can?
~Soph.

Shortened text language

So, being a sixteen year old you would've thought I would be "Down" with all the "Hip" language. I'm not, infact it confuses me. I mean some of it there is no real meaning to it, it's just there to use and to say to people. Normally, when I find out a text abbreviations, I will say it to my friends and see if they know, they don't. The look on their face however, priceless.
My mother usually texts me using this "Down and hip" language, I will just stand there looking at my phone, scratching my head with confusion and uttering "Huh?" under my breath.
I literally just googles Text language and meanings - I have too much spare time - I understand the basics:
KK - Okay
TTYL - Talk to you later
Pls/Plz - Please
Thx - Thanks (Or ty - Thank you)
Lol, Omg - Laugh out loud, oh my god. Etc.

But now, looking at the new abbriviations I've never even heard of, my brain hurts.. only slightly. - It's the last day of term, give me a break. - Looking at a website for "The older generation that may not understand text language" These things came up, some I don't think anyone would generally use unless they were too lazy to text properly.

LTHTT - Laughing too hard too type
CWOT - Complete waste of time
POV - Parents over shoulder
KPC - Keeping Parents clueless.

The more recent ones I have actually heard of are things that are used day to day:
Lol, K, LY, Pls, Thx, Ahah. - All the ones I can actually recall hearing or using.
Turning around and saying LY to someone is another way of "expressing your love" My opinion, lazy. I think if you love someone you should show it to them properly. Send a decent text saying "I love you." Simple, not too much to write and it means a whole lot more than two letters, squashed together, that have only a slight meaning.
People who use text language should either teach others around what it means or give them a sheet of paper/leaflet/book/bible of all the different words there are, just so people can look them up, have a smile on their face, without the whole blank, looking like a unentertained, confused monkey, it would help, Pls?!
~Soph.

Welcome to Judgement day.

     People often say things along the lines of "I won't judge you, I'm not like that." I would personally think of this as a lie. They will most likely be judging you in their head, either positivly or negitivly, who knows? Obviously, apart from them, unless they are open and honest with you... I will be open and say, I judge people! Not in a mean way normally.. I try not too anyway.
     Before judging someone I will find something in common with them: Music taste, Film Genres, Preferred sports, Hobbies, opinons on things, etc. Obviously, if they like Channing Tatum and Alex Pettyfer, we can be best friends. Same goes with Keith Lemon and Lee Evans. They are all beautiful, entertainment, comedy wise. - Just so my friends don't read that wrong, COMEDY WISE.
     My mother is the complete opposite, along with my two aunts. They all like, sorry, LOVE Colin Firth. I'm not too sure about him.. I've seen basically every film with him in and by far Bridget Jones' Diary was the best film. Sorry, I shouldn't be going on about films/guys..
    So, back to judging. Is it positive or negative? Whilst writing this, I currently have my friend peering over my shoulder - Sorry, by my side. - reading everything (apparently correcting me also, I would class it as moaning, personally) She says that judging people is a mix of both positive and negative feelings, I would be agreeing with this point. You judge somone so quickly without even stopping to think as to what made someone like the way they are. Maybe there's a reason as to why they are more of a closed off person, maybe there's a reason as to why they are confident more than others, maybe there's simply a reason as to why they are more clingy than others. Realising this, I have tried to stop judging people as quickly, I will stay as mutual as possible with people until I know them well enough. I wouldn't want to be judged as quickly, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't either... unless you enjoy it. Well, just think about it, I would say.
~Soph.

It appears my positive 'mojo' has gone for a walk...

    Lately, I have become quite oblivious to things surrounding me. Sometimes... I just sit back and watch things happen in a blur. I like to think of it like you're ejecting yourself from a plane and flying down quite quickly to the ground. When you hit the ground is when you're faced with reality.
    So far, my friendship groups in school are changing quite rapidly, although some of us are still friends, we are either growing apart or we're getting closer to new people. It's life, I guess? Change is good, one change I'm not looking forward too is leaving school, adventuring into a new learning environment and fighting to be noticed. Today, seeming as it's getting closer to when we actually leave school, we had to write a yearbook quote. When our form tutor told us, as you could probably tell.. we all just stared, our minds blank and some even had their mouths open to show 'how fast their brain was actually working' - the last sentence was sarcasm.. - I wouldn't be surprised if the occasional fly flew around their head and in their mouth. Once we were all given paper we jumped right too it. Some people put things like "In ten years time I want to be in a job I enjoy or have a family." Others put something along the lines of "The best moment at school was the year camp." both quite good ideas, however me being me I wanted to live by something that wasn't so specific and narrow so I could have a wide range of choices.
     "In ten years time I want to have a positive attitude to new opportunities  my school has shown me to look at some things in a new light. When you come across a problem, look on the positive side, even if it means learning from your mistakes."
     Not going to lie, I was quite happy with that quote. For me, it's an easy thing to live by, yet it's a rule that covers basically anything.
    Positive attitudes

So, what does this have to do with the conflict of friendships? Maybe it's something as simple as being put in a position, that you may not enjoy, and finding a route out. However, accepting that in some cases you may be in the wrong is a way to test your maturity. Saying sorry sometimes isn't difficult but it looks like you 'admit defeat,' look at it how you want but this is a road to positive thinking. Keeping a balance between people, growing apart and growing closer are ways to learn how to walk in another's shoes. Taking one step  at a time to reach the 'finish line' that could be a start to a new opportunity that may just be something you enjoy. I'm currently at the point of trying to find a route out of difficult situation between friendships and friends that I have known for years, whilst trying to form new friendships with different people surrounding me. With my lack of experiences within these areas, as you could tell, I'm finding it quite challenging. Maybe, time will be on my side and I could learn from my mistakes as a teenager. This could be taken into my future to know what caused the trigger to blow and how to avoid being put back into something along the lines of this. That's part of growing up, learning from mistakes, even falling on your face is classed as moving forward... even if it is slightly painful when you hit your nose, it's only a matter of time before things organise themselves out again. Prepare yourself with a sword and armour and you could face the world with only a one person army, not that you need an army. Who knows, maybe people will join you along the way of this extraordinary adventure.
~Soph.

Sharing hearts and minds. Valentines day.

    Valentines day for me is like any other normal weekend, sitting at home, eating crackers whilst watching cute films about the 'Perfect' couple, -I have to admit for about 5 years.. I've been dreaming that I could be the main character in one of these films, now.. not so much. If anything I would want my story to be unique, just different from all the spontaneous films you see. - waiting for mum to come in from her date with her partner, then fill me in on how much fun she had. I love her going out, she comes back home full of life and has so much to tell me about where they went, what they had and all the details about what they ordered.
     On Valentines day.. I'm often like the Grinch but on a different day. This is probably because I'm often dreaming of someone to sweep me off my feet, bring me dozens of red roses and multiple boxes of chocolates. Someone to spoil me like in the old fashioned fairy tale, the knight in shining armor saves the princess with the long flowing hair, blah, blah, blah. I'm such a soppy person at times but some things
     In reality.. I go out with the girls and have a small little - what we would call - romantic meal together, go round each other's houses and watch soppy films whilst commenting on how unrealistic the plot to the film is. That day would be an excuse to eat as much sweet stuff as possible, like Christmas.. but with hearts instead of snowmen, teddies instead of Christmas trees, Red roses instead of mistletoe. Looking at it, it's probably has nothing like Christmas, the only relation I can make is the food. Warm, homely meals, cooked by loved ones.
      This year, seeming as it's a Thursday, I'm going to be watching a caberet at my school, at the weekend, go out for a nice romantic meal with one of my girlies, at lunch.. Unless, something pops up - hint, hint, wink, wink. -
      Anyway, heart shaped cookies anyone? No? More for me then.
~Soph.

Hey there, neat freak.

    My life as a sixteen year old normally consists of going out with friends. Shopping, walking, street surfing, bowling, etc.
     However, with my being out later than my, what I would call, over-protective mother, it normally means I'm restricted a few weekends and I'm forcefully pressured into doing jobs, ironing, hovering, Tidying cupboards, cooking, cleaning the bathroom - the worst job, I would say, I could possibly do. Having all these jobs piled on my life could be seen as positive and negative in ways.
   It's mainly negative however, who would enjoy doing jobs like that? I don't mind a few jobs like cooking, this is a time when I can zone out and listen to music, whilst creating the next meal Heston would love to eat.. I would think. However who would enjoy tidying? Unless, you're starring on "how clean is your house" or you're Kim Woodburn and Aggie MacKenzie, they both look as if they enjoy being shocked by the day to day mess and horrors people's homes are actually in.
    The positive things about it is the fact you can have people judge your home and mentally point things out about you, sorry.. that's probably negative again. Well, not everyone does that, I'm sure. Knowing that things are in order and people can actually come around and enjoy themselves without the thought of dvds, coursework, makeup or even clothes getting in the way or being trampled on. Once I leave home, I'm going to have to do eveything for myself, unless I employ a maid to clean everything after me. The chances of me being able to afford anything/anyone like that.. probably, nil.
    Once I leave home - I'm dreading it. - I know, for a fact, I will have friends staying over most nights. This will mean, most my mornings will consist of tidying up after them and putting everything that was in order but now on the floor, back into the normal place it should be. How do I know this will happen? I'm a messy person at times, my room goes from being spotless to being a bombsite in under about 10 seconds. This would be due to me loosing something... I would normally be able to find... when my room is messy. Having this curse of being a "Messy person" rubs off onto my friends. When my friends come around to stay, we have food and drinks in my room whilst gossiping about anything. By the end of the night, my room is stacked up to the top with: uneaten food, half drunk drinks, plates, forks, knives and the occasional spoons. - whilst writing this, I got a lecture about eating ice cream with forks by one of the stranger/strangest girl in my class. Are you as confused as I am right now? I have to say, she's original. -
    For now, I'm happy at home. I will most likely do the jobs without complaining - Not a promise, you can probably tell, I moan about pretty much most things. -
    Maybe, I'm just a negative person, think too much or even just plain lazy. Who knows, either way I'm happy.
~Soph.

Winter, negative and positive thoughts.

   Winter is the time of year I particularly dread. The cold, the snow, the lack of transport caused by the snow, the dark afternoons, the ice - mainly the ice.  
   The other day I had a few of my closer friends around. To start with it was going to be around 10+ people until the snow basically dropped from the sky in a blanket at around 9am and covered anything, I mean anything. 
    In the morning one of my friends came up to my house, slipping on the small amount of snow that was already increasing every second. Once he was inside, in the.. what I would normally call warm house, however the actual temperature inside was only about four degrees warmer than outside, we started getting ready to trek across town to go to another friends house, mainly to watch a few films to keep us entertained and slightly amused, although what we did resort to watching was one of the most sickening and gory films I've ever seen, I don't want to watch anything like it again, ever. 
    Later that day, after watching the horrific film, we went out sledging. Dangerous plan. Looking back at what actually happened and how many bruises we had between us, it was fun but whether or not the pain inflicted on each of us was worth it.. a whole different story, that we all aren't really sure about right now...



As you can see by the look on my face I wasn't happy. I tried - and failed - to surf down the double hill, twice. The first time I fell on my hip and the second time I had two choices, stay on the sledge and hit a poor innocent child running around at the bottom of the hills in his all-in-one black and yellow.. snow suit, - I want one, not the actual child, a snow suit. - or I could jump and sustain another injury to my knee. Obviously, I jumped. I turned around to find my friend clinging to her phone laughing, it took me about a second to realise she was filming me, the threat of it being sent to "You've Been Framed" is still on my mind. The four of us were outside for roughly around 5-6 hours. The only positive about being out this long was actually noticing the shape of each snowflake. The snowflakes landed on our jumpers, jackets, leggins and hair and we noticed how big and actually, how pretty they were, As you can see one or two below..

 Obviously, nearly at risk of hypothermia and frostbite, we went for a walk, creating what we hoped would create more of a blood circulation around our fingers and toes. We walked along a road and down a quite steep hill. Parading along, with the sledge just behind me, I was chatting away to my friend, getting slightly distracted by a car trying and slowly failing to get up a hill. The sledge was slowly creeping up to me, increasing its speed until it was actually under my foot. As soon as I put my foot down, I went flying. Throwing my phone in the air, I landed on my derrière. One of my friends made a dive to save my phone whilst the other was too busy trying to keep balance on the snow and control her laughing. This is the main reason why I would class snow/ice as horrible. I wouldn't say there was anything positive about that 
   The next day, looking at the extent of the damage I actually caused to my own body.. I discovered well over ten tender spots, the main one being my back and bottom. Luckily, thanks to my friend, my phone is fully intact, receiving only a few, barely visible, microscopic scratches. 
   Currently, I'm in bed waiting for another bed of snow to turn up and hopefully only emerge for food and water tomorrow, I know that won't happen as I will be forced into going outside and actually doing something on a Sunday, please help me from this torture. I DON'T LIKE SNOW, unless I'm in the warm.. looking outside... covered in blankets.. with vital supplies: A movie, junk food and water with a hot water bottle, in that case I love it. Therefore I must say I have mixed and undecided feelings about it, what do you think?
~Soph.