It appears my positive 'mojo' has gone for a walk...
Lately, I have become quite oblivious to things surrounding me. Sometimes... I just sit back and watch things happen in a blur. I like to think of it like you're ejecting yourself from a plane and flying down quite quickly to the ground. When you hit the ground is when you're faced with reality.
So far, my friendship groups in school are changing quite rapidly, although some of us are still friends, we are either growing apart or we're getting closer to new people. It's life, I guess? Change is good, one change I'm not looking forward too is leaving school, adventuring into a new learning environment and fighting to be noticed. Today, seeming as it's getting closer to when we actually leave school, we had to write a yearbook quote. When our form tutor told us, as you could probably tell.. we all just stared, our minds blank and some even had their mouths open to show 'how fast their brain was actually working' - the last sentence was sarcasm.. - I wouldn't be surprised if the occasional fly flew around their head and in their mouth. Once we were all given paper we jumped right too it. Some people put things like "In ten years time I want to be in a job I enjoy or have a family." Others put something along the lines of "The best moment at school was the year camp." both quite good ideas, however me being me I wanted to live by something that wasn't so specific and narrow so I could have a wide range of choices.
"In ten years time I want to have a positive attitude to new opportunities my school has shown me to look at some things in a new light. When you come across a problem, look on the positive side, even if it means learning from your mistakes."
Not going to lie, I was quite happy with that quote. For me, it's an easy thing to live by, yet it's a rule that covers basically anything.
Positive attitudes
So, what does this have to do with the conflict of friendships? Maybe it's something as simple as being put in a position, that you may not enjoy, and finding a route out. However, accepting that in some cases you may be in the wrong is a way to test your maturity. Saying sorry sometimes isn't difficult but it looks like you 'admit defeat,' look at it how you want but this is a road to positive thinking. Keeping a balance between people, growing apart and growing closer are ways to learn how to walk in another's shoes. Taking one step at a time to reach the 'finish line' that could be a start to a new opportunity that may just be something you enjoy. I'm currently at the point of trying to find a route out of difficult situation between friendships and friends that I have known for years, whilst trying to form new friendships with different people surrounding me. With my lack of experiences within these areas, as you could tell, I'm finding it quite challenging. Maybe, time will be on my side and I could learn from my mistakes as a teenager. This could be taken into my future to know what caused the trigger to blow and how to avoid being put back into something along the lines of this. That's part of growing up, learning from mistakes, even falling on your face is classed as moving forward... even if it is slightly painful when you hit your nose, it's only a matter of time before things organise themselves out again. Prepare yourself with a sword and armour and you could face the world with only a one person army, not that you need an army. Who knows, maybe people will join you along the way of this extraordinary adventure.
~Soph.
