Millions of thoughts are crammed into my mind in the space of 0.000001 second, impossible? Impossible is two letters too long. - As quoted from the advert, I can't even remember what one.
Why am I all those feelings in one? Well, easy, I guess.. possibly, Maybe, IDK?!
The main reasons as to why I'm upset, stressed, nervous, anxious etc. is mainly due to a new start, and to the end of something I've been attending for twelve... yes, twelve years my life. School. School seems like an chore and boring/tedious/horrible/groan/moan/blahblahblah. Looking back, it wasn't, for me personally, I enjoyed it. I met my closest friends there, I learned how to communicate, gain confidence, social skills, how to evaluate situations, how to adjust and act more mature. School wasn't just about learning different subjects like Maths, Art, Drama, PE, RE, English, Science. For me it was where I learned even the basic skills that I will need/use for life.
However, now? I've only got a week left. So many thoughts run through our mind: what do you do? What do I do?
Where do you go?
Will you like it?
More importantly, will you make it?
You have too dive head first in some cases into something you want too try, adjust yourself to the situation and if you don't like it, take a step back and examine other choices around.
Life
Life is a way of making new paths, new choices, new options. What path you decide too take, is down to what you believe is the right choice for you.. This is something that some people let others choose for them, why? Why would you let someone choose something for you, why would you give them the control over your life? They may choose something that you hate but they love? Again, Why? I will never understand.
Sometimes, in some cases, people just need a gentle nudge, to gain confidence within themselves and understand that even if things go wrong, there may be things that go right within that thing that went 'wrong'.
Mistakes
Focusing on what we think is a 'Mistake' may cause us to mentally stop, sit on our bottoms and throw a tantrum that even 3 year old may look at you and be shocked. Don't worry, we will all do it, multiple times, possibly more. This is the times when we need too reflect, nothing bad has actually happened, has it? So something has gone wrong once, how many things has gone right for you so far? You're possibly thinking "Well, nothing" That is one big lie. You have life, you have a soul, you are living. Living everyday, day by day. That is a gift within its self.
The path of life
I have understood that my path of life hasn't been exactly straight and at the end of the day, it never will. I will keep working and understanding that the more I worry about things, the less steps I'm mentally taking along my little road. No ones road will be perfectly straight. People may get lost along the way, it means you just have to keep walking until you find a path again.
Problems will arise and could cause mountains within these paths, depending on the way you look at it. It's a matter of taking things step by step and climbing up too that goal. Yes, you may slip a little, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, You're only human.
Live life how you think it should be lived. Work with a smile on your face and hold out your hand too someone that may be struggling up that mountain beside you. We're not alone remember.
People may join you, let them. People may leave you, let them. Letting go may seem the hardest thing but you cannot keep hold of someone and force them too stay. You're creating memories, day by day, with new and with old friends, family or strangers. These memories will stand by you and possibly give you a little nudge of energy or a smile when you need it the most.
Remember, you have a gift that is worth more than material goods even if it doesn't seem like it. Share it with others and you will possibly find yourself and others to hold your hand along the way.
~Soph.
